Tuesday, June 17, 2008

My Unaccomplishments.

This was the only New Year's Resolution that I had. I probably chose only one, because I knew this would be extremely hard for me.
My goal for 2008 was to become a non-smoker. I have smoked since I was 18, and I hate the expense, the smell, and the effects that it has on my health. Unfortunately, I never realized just how hard it would be to quit. I never realized just how addicting this nasty habit could be. I crave it, I yearn for it, nicotine is a drug, and it's the only drug that has had a hold over me.
I didn't do so bad during the pregnancy. I stayed away from cigarettes, although I can't honestly say that I was completely good, I slipped a couple times. I figured if I went for the duration of the pregnancy I could conquer this addiction. I haven't. As soon as I started back to work I was back to smoking. It's so hard to work at a casino, and not smoke. Honestly, you're smoking just by walking around inside. So, I am a smoker again. Cigarettes are expensive, and the cost sucks, but I am more scared that I will do irreparable damage to my body. It was never that important (I mean 27 is still young), but now that I have a child things are different. I don't want him to grow up and see his parents smoke. I don't want him to have this habit. I don't want to die from a bad habit I couldn't give up. I want to watch him grow up, and I want to watch my grandchildren grow as well.
I have all these great aspirations, and all of the best reasons to quit smoking.... Why can't I? How can this thing be that much stronger than me? Why am I so weak?


  1. Now come on! Don't be so hard on yourself. They were made to be addictive. You just have to get in the right mind set. YOU CAN DO IT!
    You are not weak! You are Gods best dirt! You are a mom! You can do anything!

  2. Girl, I don't know anyone who's just stopped cold turkey. You're going to fall off the wagon many times; the important thing is to keep trying. I think it's got to be hard when there are other smokers at work... Just keep trying, Margy!

  3. I remember quitting smoking about 8 years ago now, and it was one of the toughest things to do. It is addicting, and working in the environment that you do does not make it easy, but if you keep at it, you will eventually be successful. Maybe you need to try the patch or gum? I was able to do it cold turkey, but I think that may just be the hardest way...good luck! All the hard work and effort to quit will be worth it in the end!

  4. Quitting is very difficult I know that from when my parents were doing it and trying to quit. After other failed attempts they finally were able to do it together 24 yrs ago at a hypnotist's office. You have to really want to though. You will be showing your child just how strong you are if you are able to quit. I remember nagging my parents constantly because their smoke bothered me so much. And like Tiffany said you're a mom you can do anything! Good luck!

  5. I have FAITH that you can quit!!! have you tried the money in the jar trick? everytime you want to buy a pack (or box) of cigarrettes, put that same amount of money in a jar. you see just how much money you are saving by not smoking. it is a motivator for some people. also, have someone you call when you are craving. you will slip up (my mom still hasn't kicked the nasty habit--even when she knew i was allergic to it), but keep strong. you are already on the right track! keep up the GREAT work.

  6. Yes this can be a tough "habit" because that's what it is. I'm not a die hard smoker but have started and stopped with several years in between. I usually stop cold turkey and before I do, everytime I have a cig I say to myself, why am I smoking? This taste terrible, this stinks, then eventually I stop and when I crave one, I am quick to take my "thoughts" away from the craving and do something else to keep myself busy breaking the habit.

    I am sure you can do it and if not there are plenty good products on the market that at least can help you. So good luck, I know you can do it and don't be so hard on yourself.

  7. Think about the health of your son and what sort of air is he breathing.

    Many children develop asthma from second hand smoke. Do you want that?

    Also, as your son's senses develop and you don't quit, he is actually being imprinted with smoking. He will remember the sight, smell, and start himself.

    Then there is the health expenses down the road for long term smoking. Not to mention liver cancer, the secret killer of smokers, skin issues, teeth problems, and a whole slew of other issues.

    You can quit, you need to set your mind to it. Anything is possible!